Mommy/Ella Time

I had my first overnight away from my little girl.  It was a great get away for me to spend with some girlfriends doing some scrapbooking.  So when I returned today all I wanted to do was have Ella time so after feeding her I decided to try on her new snow suit and this is what she looked like..... I know I am biased but she is too cute!  And seems to be a little immobile in her new suit!

2 Month Memory

So yesterday was my vent and confession of my 2 month meltdown, so to help you see that I truly love my new role in life despite my clothes not fitting, despite many late night feedings, despite not getting my thank yous done yet..... I LOVE BEING A MOM!!!

I had no idea how amazing it would be to have a child.  Some days I just sit and stare at her as she sleeps.  How can anyone look at a child and not believe in God - I just don't know.  I have loved watching and getting to know my little one over the past two months, but I must say the past two weeks have been especially wonderful.... she is now smiling and following us with her eyes.  I just love the little faces she makes as her daddy tickles her toes.  It makes my heart overflow with joy as I watch her smile.... even if at times it is just because of gas - a smile is a smile!!!

One of the best pieces of advice that I was once given was don't wish their years away - don't get so caught up in what you are waiting for them to do - to not enjoy what they are learning to do now.  I loved when she was a newborn and she just circled up on my chest and slept in a little ball.  I loved when she started to open her eyes and one second she could focus and the next second it was back to the cross eyed.  I loved when she had her eyes open more than five minutes at a time..... let's just say - there is sometime special about every stage to love... and today I love her smile.  Check out this video of my 2 month memory!

2 Month Meltdown

My closet is full but my options are empty!!!  So on Saturday I ventured into my closet to find something to wear to a special service at our church which I was leading music for.   I wanted to wear something a little nicer than jeans but not super dressy - so I would say it was khaki and nice shirt type of night.  I went into my closet and found a pair of khakis and noticed an array of shirts to choose from (yes I am one of those ladies that when I find a shirt that I like and it fits me and it is on sale - I buy all the colors available)  I put on the pants, though they were tighter than I would have liked - they fit me and I figured I could just cover up my baby pouch with one of my many long sleeve shirts - WRONG!!!  I put on the first shirt..... didn't fit - too short.  Put on the second shirt - didn't fit "my girls" were too big and I looked like a hussy (sorry but there is really no other word to describe how bad I looked in that shirt)  I tried on a third (yeah you may be wondering why I even continued to try them on at this point) and it was too tight.....ARGHHHHH  I yelled from the closet and Joel asked what was wrong - I simply yelled - nothing fits and then as I realized that trully nothing did fit - I began to sob!!!  (Gosh I thought I was over that stage of post pregnancy - I guess not!) 

I finally broke down and just went to my few remaining maternity things that fit me but don't make me look too frumpy - I wasn't pleased with my outfit but it at least covered my top, covered my pouch and wasn't skin tight so I guess it was a success by most people's standards - however it was a rough night for me as I realized - I have a long road to get back to a healthy body weight and closet of clothes that will actually fit me.  I just don't want to have to wear maternity clothes for the rest of my life, but I guess I should just be happy that I have clothing!  Oh the woahs of post pregnancy!  Tomorrow I will post of the joys of post pregnancy so come back and visit as I look at the joy of the journey!

The Hunt Continues (Girl Stuff)

So if you are a man - consider yourself warned - this blog will contain information about girl stuff!

For the last few months of my pregnancy I contemplated getting a few good nursing bras, however I had heeded the warnings that "the girls" will change size when your milk comes in.  So I held off since I knew that buying bras was a large investment.

I did go to Target with hopes of getting a few inexpensive stretchy ones to wear at the hospital - but let's just say - they didn't fit!  Not even the XXL - seriously!  I was shocked - I am sure the size must have been wrong!

So on our trip to Babies R Us - my niece and I looked at Bras (yes they do have Bras there in the Medela nursing department) and I found two that fit but are not the most supportive.

Now two months later I began the hunt for a good nursing bra since my stretchy ones are starting to fall apart (literally)  I went to a Motherhood store and was so thankful to finally find a store that carries nursing bras - they are few and far between and I didn't want to order online since I have no idea what size I would wear.

I was so excited to see that they carried a wide variety of sizes up to a size E (which I never even knew existed)  Well I took a variety of sizes back to try on but too my dismay - NONE FIT!!!!!  Urghhhh - not even an E - seriously - I don't even know what size would be next!  Or what size I would even need.

So back to square one - the woahs of motherhood!  I never knew this would be so hard.  So any suggestions on what size would be next or where to get a nursing bra in plus sizes - I would love that information!!!

Hope this wasn't TMI - but as woman I am guessing I am not the only one who has dealt with this or will deal with it in the future.